Missing 'home'

I am sitting here laying in my bed at my sisters home surrounded by mess. My mattress is on the floor, my clothes are laying around me wanting to be washed. I am surrounded by unpaid bills that I keep on forgetting to pay, and I am missing my 3200 sq. ft home and my friends. I knew that the excitement of moving back 'home' to NY would soon wear off and I would be sad and miss SC. I didn't know that it would be this quick. Andrew cried today asking when he would see his friends again. I cried knowing that we didn't know when we would see them again. I sit here in tears, wanting to see my friend Lora's smiling face, hear Sooz's laugh and let Andrew play with his best friend Ivory. I want to feel Lindsay's hug and prayers for me. And be able to walk a few houses down to Jenn's house to hang out with her and just relax. I want to host a chocolate fondue party with all my best girlfriends from 'home' in SC just one more time and give you all big hugs again.
I love being here in NY with all my friends here. I love being back at the church where Mark and I met and started our lives together. I don't love living out of boxes. One of the greatest things I have learned since moving back here is how important I am to my children.'Home' is not a place, it is wherever my kids and my husband are. Andrew has been acting out lately, he misses SC a lot, I can tell. We don't have any friends here that live less than 30 minutes away who have kids Andrew's age. We need to find local friends. He is lonely, I can tell. That breaks my heart, I need to step it up more as a mom and love him more. Spend more time with him, quality time where I am listening to him, playing with him, loving him. I love being near Mark's parents. I love being able to just go over there for dinner, drop the kids off for a date night like we did last night, and hang out with Jenna and Isaac. I am just missing my own space I guess.....missing my amazing girlfriends who I left in SC. I can't wait for Jenn to get here, I think that will help me a lot when her and Joel get here....give me some part of SC back to me. My time in SC was probably the most amazing 3 yrs of my life. I have learned so much that I can never change, and I love that.
I love you girls, my friends in SC! I can't wait to see you again!
Oh and I forgot to post pictures of Andrew's first day of school. He is doing great there, despite all the crazy changes here. Oh and please please please pray for our family, the swine flu is breaking out at his school, I have asked my mother in law to send an mail out (she is the principal at his school) to have parents come to pray over the school with me sometime next week. Pray that we stay healthy, especially Hannah since the flu would affect her the most since she is so young... Speaking of Hannah, she ate her first bowl of rice cereal tonight. Pictures to follow...
Proud mommy with Andrew

Andrew with grandma AKA principal Greutman
Oh and I also got a new hair cut....

Also, Mark and I did something daring last night....wanted to be crazy. We snuck into the local college ice hockey game. I know I know, that is illegal, but it sure was fun!!!